Discipline

I tend to be the type of person who is full of ideas.  I’m like a kid in the sense that I want to do everything and try everything and go everywhere.  The world is my oyster and life is meant for living.  The problem I find is that there is never any time.  I often feel like I am watching everyone else doing what I want to be doing and I’m stuck at work.  Or sleeping.  When I’m not at work, I always seem to be sleeping and somehow don’t get enough sleep and so,  I’m almost always tired.  Coffee, Spark, Monster…required items for an average day.  I’m trying to figure out how to cut these out, but honestly, I’m a nurse…I can’t detox at the expense of my A game (and my A game demands a lot of caffeine).

I do have my free days and I try to enjoy them to the fullest.  I rock climb whenever possible and have started mountain biking again after slacking off for more than a year.  I share a lot of adventures with my awesome boyfriend and I try to spend time with my Mom at least once a week.  But there’s so much more I want to do.  Things I feel I should and could be doing, that I never seem to get around to.  I am always too tired to utilize my away-from-work time efficiently.  Seriously frustrating!

I obviously can’t change the fact that I have to work , so I have to work on improvements in other areas that will allow me to enjoy the life I feel I’m missing out on.  My diet has basically gone to shit over the past year and a half.  I’ve been working out so little it’s basically been not at all.  My sleep schedule is erratic, but really only partly because of work.  Mostly because I’m completely undisciplined about it and just fall asleep when I fall asleep.  These are all things I’ve been working on in recent days.

Discipline seems to be an underlying theme here.  I really don’t like schedules, routines, etc., but I am seriously committed to finding that happy place.  I can be pretty lax with myself if I’m the one I’m answering to.  That’s one of the purposes of this blog – accountability.  And discipline.  It’s also something I’m always getting around to but never do.  So here is me, being disciplined…blog post 1.